Minggu, 31 Juli 2016

Failed Interview


Menurut kamu, perekonomian saat ini gimana?

It's a quiet serious topic. Anatara curhat dan ngasih kuliah malam.

Jadi, saya tertampar dengan pertanyaan sederhana dari seorang interviewer, seperti yang sudah saya curhatkan di post sebelumnya bahwa saya seorang fresh graduate nih manteman.
Jadi, ini kali pertamanya saya dapet sms cinta dari pihak HRD sebuah bank, awalnya nelpon sih tapi karna waktu itu lagi les hp nya saya silent, dan dengan baik hati beliau masih mau sms saya, biasanya dua kali telpon terus kita ga angkat kan gugur musnah sudah itu panggilan. Tapi beliau masih ngasih kesempatan dengan mengirim pesan singkat untuk undangan interview.

Datanglah saya pada waktu yang ditentukan, waktu itu ada 3 orang, yang satu udah tinggal tanda tangan kontrak karena udah lama ikut seleksinya, yang dua (termasuk saya) baru interview perkenalan, terus ngisi dulu form yang pertanyaannya macem-macem, setelah selesai ngisi, kita dipanggil satu-satu, pihak HRD nya bilang gausah tegang, padahal ga tegang sama sekali ._. bahkan saya mah let it flow aja. Nah, justru karena gak tegang itu lah jadinya saya kayak ga fokus gitu terlalu menggimana entarkan interview berjalan seperti apa, pas giliran saya, pihak HRD nya bilang fokus ya, saya diinterview sama pincab nya kalo ga salah. Masuk lah saya ke ruangannya, saya pikir pincab nya bapak-bapak gitu, tapi ternyata masih muda gitu kalo sekilas, tapi pas beliau ngobrol beda banget, keliatan banget dewasa, bijaksana, tegas, dan lain lain sifat yang dimiliki seorang leader *lebay. Mulai deh nervous attack, singkat banget sebenernya, beliau mau ada rapat gitu, terus beliau bilang interview nya kita cukup 15 menit aja ya, saya iya iya aja. Beliau nanya-nanya sesuai apa yang ada di form, kita cuma ngejelasin lebih detail aja. Dan tibalah pada pertanyaan, menurut kamu perekonomian di Indonesia sekarang kayak gimana? dan jeger tiba-tiba saya nge blank dan gabisa jawab apa-apa. Sebagai lulusan ekonomi, aku merasa gagal *nangiskejer
Sungguh ini pertanyaan sederhana, saking sederhananya sampe lupa jawabnya gimana. Kayak lagi sidang skripsi, kita belajar apa-apa yang berat, tapi teori dasar kita lupa untuk memahami. wkwk

Sebenernya bukan gak bisa jawab, tapi bingung haha. Apa yang ada di kepala sama di hati beda. Kepala isinya data-data, hati bisa baca realitas sesungguhnya. *Ngomonmgapasih
Padahal, bapaknya tuh terus ngasih clue, tapi apa yang saya katakan sungguh berbanding terbalik dengan jawaban beliau dan realita sebenernya.
Entah, mungkin saya juga yang ga bisa mencerna pertanyaan itu, saya fokusnya perekonomian tahun 2016. Dan saya emang gak tau banget perekonomian sekarang, jangankan perekonomian, sosial, politik pun. Ga baca berita, ga nonton berita. Intinya saya ga aware  banget sama apa yang terjadi di negara ini jangankan negara, di sekitarpun, oh tuhan saya ngapain aja sampe seperti ini. 
HAHAHA miris sih sebenernya. Dan lewat interviewer ini lah aku disadarkan untuk segera aware dengan apa yang terjadi di sekitar. 

Pulang interview saya masih ga habis pikir, kenapa hal ini bisa terjadi oh tuhan *sambil nangis sambil nyayi. Saya tanya sama diri sendiri, jadi menurutmu farida, perekonomian saat ini seperti apa? 

Okay, sepanjang jalan pulang saya urai, apa yang menyebabkan saya bingung denga pertanyaan ini.
setelah ngerut-ngerutin dahi,  saya nemu juga jawabannya nih.

Sebagai manusia yang ngalamin nulis skripsi, kita biasa menjelaskan sesuatu berdasarkan teori dan data-data, ataupun penelitian terdahulu. Jadi, nemu pertanyaan gitu, serasa lagi sidang , kalo kita jawab nanti diminta data dan teori hahaha ternyata sindrom sidang skripsi masih ada.

Sebenernya itu pertanyaan essay, jawabannya bukan baik atau buruk doang, tapi bisa ambigu dan paradoks. Gak bisa langsung bilang baik atau buruk tanpa penjelasan. Ini yang bikin saya ga bisa bilang baik atau  buruk dalam hitungan detik pas interviewer nanya (padahal mah lagi telmi aja).

Mungkin, pertama kita perlu memposisikan kita sebagai apa, atau siapa. Karena kadang penialain itu tergantung sudut pandang. Sebagai masyarakat biasa, atau pemerintah.

Saya berada di posisi entah berantah :" entah siapa maksudnya.

Singkat aja, karena sesungguhnya panjang sekali kalo dijelaskan detail. Perekonomian di Indonesia, untuk mengetahu hal ini kita bisa liat dari data-data variabel makro ekonomi, kayak pertumbuhan ekonomi, inflasi, nilai tukar rupiah, angka kemiskinan, angka pengangguran dan lain lain. Seinget saya pertumbuhan ekonomi empat tahun terkahir terus menunjukan pertumbuhan yang positif, artinya pertumbuhan ekonomi naik. Lalu inflasi, naek turun lah sempet naik tapi turun lagi, terus kesananya naik turun. Nilai tukar rupiah sempet terdepresiasi parah, tapi terapresiasi lagi, dan naik turun seterusnmya. Aliran investasi asing (sektor riil) cenderung naik terus. Angka kemiskinan naik turun tapi cendenrung turun (sampe 2010) cenderung naik (2014-2015), angka pengangguran naik turun yapi cenderung naik. Dan sebagainya, semua datanya bisa diliat di websitenya www.bps.go.id atau www.bi.go.id.

Padahal untuk menjawab pertanyaan itu, kita gak perlu data kok, cukup pake hati aja, resapi bagaimana hidup di jaman sekarang, sulit atau mudah, biaya-biaya mahal atau murah? Itu doang padahal, itu doang.

Data tadi kita bandingkan dengan realitanya, dari hal-hal sederhana misalnya harga-harga pokok yang sering naek turun, naeknya sering turnunnya jarang, terus lagi biaya-biaya lain emang mahal, biaya kesehatan, pendidikan, biaya sehari-hari, hari ini makan di tempat makan ini harganya segini satu bulan kemudian bisa jadi naek, kayak bulan puasa kemaren, pas bulan puasa apa-apa naik, bulan puasa selesai harganya ga balik turun (ini nih sifat buruk si harga, gak mau balik turun) dan lain lain. Buat orang yang belum masuk dunia profesional, mungkin kadang gak sadar sama keadaan ini, mungkin orangtua yang bener-bener tau betapa sulitnya hidup di zaman sekarang (ini jawaban yang sempet saya lontarkan, terdengar bodoh tapi dari lubuk hati paling dalam) kita masih dikasih uang sama ortu, masalah biaya orang tua yang menanggung, jadi orangtualah yang sangat bisa merasakan hal ini, coba kalo kita udah hidup mandiri punya pendapatan sendiri, mungkin akan lebih bisa merasakan bagaimana pusingnya me manage uang hasil keringat sendiri saat ini. 

Dari data di atas mana yang paling mendominasi? Bagunsya atau buruknya, stabil atau tidak stabil?
Kebanyakan tidak stabil, walaupun perumbuhan ekonomi menunjukan pertumbuhan positif, aliran investasi asing (sektor riil) naik terus.

Jadi, antara data dan realita kadang berbeda kadang ambigu, kadang paradoks. Gitu. Saya sebagai bagian masyarakat mengakui bahwa perekonomian saat ini getting worse (bukan almost getting better kayak jawaban saya yang ngaco waktu itu). The interviewer said something yang really really true (yaelah orang-orang juga udah tau jawabannya, saya aja yang rada telmi )

Jadi, jangan males baca berita. Jadi, jadilah manusia yang gak kaku apa-apa harus menurut data dan teori (maklum, dominan otak kiri), Jangan apatis sama apa yang terjadi sama negara sendiri :" (padahal dulu sering bilang gini). 

Terimakasih pak, sudah mengingatkan saya betapa pentingnya menyadari apa yang terjadi di sekitar. Terimakasih pak sudah mengingatkan saya, betapa diri ini masih harus terus belajar :")

Meskipun interview nya went bad, tapi adaaa aja hikmahnya *nyengiiiir
Tidak banyak berharap, saya menyadari kualitas interview pada saat itu sungguh oh no. OH NO.

See you di postingan selanjutnya...


Minggu, 19 Juni 2016

Sindrom Lulus Kuliah

Tadaaa! adalah kalimat innocent yang terucap setelah sekian lama mencampakkan blog yang biasa-biasa banget ini :)

Entah berapa lama juga gak pernah nulis, curhat, atau sekedar  oret-oretan  di buku jurnal, status medsos, apalagi blog. Banyak hal baru yang berhasil mengalihkan kegemaran saya nulis-nulis random kayak dulu. Akhirnya inget setelah sadar gak ada jurnal yang biasanya dibaca ulang setelah hampir habis 1 tahun periode kehidupan *blah. 

Cukup sekian pendahuluannya. Entah mau nulis apa juga sih, let me try to write something to share *azzzik *bhak

Okay, sekarang umur saya sudah tidak semuda dulu, dan ga tua juga sih. Masuk usia kepala 2 dan punya buntut juga 2. Umur 22, apa yang sudah kamu capai di umur ini? apa saja yang sudah kau dapat di umur ini? sudah bisa mengahasilkan apa, nak? udah punya calon  kah? atau, sekarang sibuk apa? adalah rentetan pertanyaan yang cukup bikin ngahuleng tarik bagi sebagian orang-orang di umur ini, termasuk saya. 

As a fresh graduate saya merasakan juga semacam sindrom baru lulus, kehilangan status mahasiswi dan menyandang status baru as gadis lajang dan anak mamah-apa. *oke curhat. Setiap fresh graduate pasti beda-beda, ada yang milih buat membuka usaha, ada yang milih buat jalan-jalan dulu menyususri pelosok bumi, ada yang langsung nikah, dan ada yang mulai kerja. Dan saya termasuk yang menjadi seorang job seeker, kaya kebanyakan fresh graduate lainnya sih. As What I've said after graduating ceremony (dalem hati sih bilangnya), welcome to the new journey, where you have to face and break the bigger boundaries than before, by yourself, with all your efforts, this is beginning, you have no right to be weak! remember that! you got it? HHAAAHHH?! Gak gitu banget juga sih. Intinya mewanti-wanti pada diri sendiri bahwa kehidupan sebenarnya udah dimulai, dan selebihnya yah kamu tahu harus bagaimana selanjutnya.

This has a strong relation dengan cita-cita. Saya punya cita-cita? Tentunya. Tapi tidak untuk di share terlalu dalam, Saya menyadari bahwa cita-cita yang saya punya 'is tu hai', tinggi, dan sedikit ga tau diri *bhak. But everyone has a right to be what they wanna be and there is no rule to limit their dreams. karna doktrin dari kecil katanya punya cita-cita jangan nanggung-nanggung, yang penting harus mau mengusahakan, dan terus mengukur diri, mengevaluasi, agar apa yang kita cita-citakan dapat tercapai. Tapi, situ udah melakukan usaha itu semua? Not, really. But, I'm beginning, and will try to do my best. Sambil tetep berdoa diberikan yang terbaik, karena belum tentu apa yang kita cita-citakan baik di mata Alloh, let God joins our affairs

Sekian curhatnya. Dan teringat moment organisasi, nyusun skripsi dan wisuda yang kayaknya lebih layak untuk diabadikan lewat tulisan. Tapi sudahlah, kapan-kapan lagi. See you...

Minggu, 26 Januari 2014

Forget It or Regret It?

                


              There are so many regrets I found, but I deny it because to be a free person I have to never regret. I can only take all the silver lining in every case. That’s what I know, but I think regret is the sign that we had done something, we ever tried something, and decided something in our life.
                Yes, that’s what happening to me now. Like… you choose to know someone that you curious of, and you know him more, you talked, you shared something, you joked, you were angry, you liked, you loved, but suddenly something unclear happened and broke it all. What happen then? So many questions there those never be answered. The worst that can’t be forgiven is when we blame ourself… and we know it hurts. =)

                Stop! Just one word, stop! We have to stop to blame ourself, we have to stop regret and then think clearly, just remember that there is no one perfect, we ever did something wrongs and it’s very human. But the important that we have to remember is ‘what have we do to fix it all, and maybe forget it all to take ourself back, back to be a free and a peaceful person’. Rise up and stand upright~

Jumat, 27 Desember 2013

We Have To....

Glad, sad, happy, dissapointed, ashamed, I have to feel it all. To ever try, to ever fail and to rise then. That's my task, also you ... to enjoy the process, to think, to decide, to act, exactly to try something in our life.

Minggu, 01 Desember 2013

I'm sorry and I Love You, Mom.

Here I am throw all my words for the person who had sacrificed her life for her daughter.

First, I claim that I'm not the girl with a lovely attittude, not an attentive girl, and not a girl with all beautiful words. But I have something to say for my guardian.

The first word that I will say is "Sorry" if there is somethng more than that, I will say it in a million times. I'm sorry for all my faults, every seconds, every minutes, every hours, everyday, every week, every months, every years, and everytime.
All the arguments, all fights. When I against to you, when I hurt you, when I made you tired, when I made you dissapointed.
I'm knowing all my sins, and I still remember it and I think harder to erase it. Even though you never concerned about it, even though you always forgive me, even though you always love me, even though you always care to me... I still can't forgive myself about what I've done to you all this time in this life.

I beg to God to give me more chances that I can make you happy, can protect you as you had protected me, give all my devotions, and everything that I can do for your best.

I know your sacrifice, I'm the witness who knows that you are the greatest Eve, I know your sweat, I know how hard you smile even though you bear the burdens, I know how hard you make a solution of every problems. I know how tired you are when I did something wrong.
I know you did it just for my best. For your family.

Mom, don't ever tired to always lead me, don't ever tired to always be patient when I get angry, don't ever lose your smooth words when you asking me something, don't ever tired to yell at me when I do some mistakes, don't ever tired to asking me anything even though I don't want to. 'Cause deep in my heart I don't want to lose anything from you.

I can't imagine to live without you. I haven't done anyhting for you, let me make you proud, let me paint more smile in you face, let me to erase all your burdens.

The only thing that I can do is just pray and asking to my Holly God that you'll be always healthy, long life, happy ever after, always in God's protection, and will be a witness in my wedding, be a wise grandma for my children soon.

Once more, I'm sorry. I love you till the end of my life :*

Senin, 15 Juli 2013

Confusing

It’s hard to explain what we feel right now, when we are very glad, sad, and also confused. Sometimes we can only ask... Ask to ourself, ask to God, and sometimes tears are the only way to explain all the random feels of us. But, don’t be confused, that’s life, that’s a puzzle which has to be found the answer, so confusing…

Senin, 01 Juli 2013

The Words Those Have Not been Delivered

Afterlife...the song from A7X... yes afterlife is playing on my list now, and I enjoy to hear that... In the middle of the playing I remember all the things, all the moments when I was very passionate with this song. About 4 or 5 years ago, I was a girl with kind of that music. Hard music, hard voices, the core that's not slow at all, where I could feel my spirit up. I remember that. But the things that I want to say here is not about the music, but this is about all mistakes that I've ever done to one guy. I'm full of tears if I remember this, but I like too in the same time. 

I'm full of tears when I let my mind to open the past story... When I hated him so much because the reason unknown. I want tell everyone that this feel is not what it seems. I hate him but I don't hate him... This words is so confusing, right?
Let me to opend every windows of my minds... At the moment, when I was a high school student I ever met one guy in second world (you got it?) I talked with him as If we were friends, he had the same passion in music, almost. I shared with him about the music, although just a short period of time. 
In another day, my friend said to me about him, he blablabla and blalala. I think that was a good news, no mistakes at all. For the first time I met him in the first world, I saw a guy who were tired after played tennis, and I guessed him, the guy who talked with me in the second world. Hmm him, just two words "hmm him''. The night had come, I entered my 2nd world and he was there, we talked again and he asked me about our undirect meeting lastday (-_-) he asked me "how... am I handsome right?" That's silly question... and I answered ''Of course because you are a male, dude". Funny enough, but the conversations was not long because I was lazy to get conversation with him, why? Because my friend said to me at the other time  that  he mocked me behind.

He mocked me behind... I believed of that statement. I got no respect at all to him. If we met, I always put my cocky face as If I didn't want to know him, and I did it always. ALWAYS!

Afte long time, I forgot that I hate him (funny) I started the conversation, I asked him about music of course, he answered nicely. He asked me to see a death fest, but I couldn't be sure to come there. I thought he was nice, he was not annoying. But suddenly I remembered the hate feeling AGAIN rrrrr

Till the news come that he was my friend's boyfie, yeah. Oh mygoodness this is THE REAL TEENAGER STORY -__- *absurd
I was fine to hear that, I just.... had a random feeling.

The times showed that he was not what I was thinking. I realized I should not hate him because he mocked me... It was very childish. I was selfish to myself, and to him. I realized that having a hatred heart is just like a coward. I was ashamed to myself cause I did some wrongs... It was like I restricted the friendship with him. He was not wrong, mocking  is just a little thing that I should not had care of it. 
This guilt was like a shadow that always walks beside me. Till the feeling changed... changed to be a good 'titlte'  fellow feeling. He was kind, humble... Not like what I was thinking. 
Feeling sorry and sorry. If I could go to the past, I would start a conversation and asked about 'why did you mock me, dude?' and then I made it as a joke to know the answer... To see how his reaction, if bad yes he is bad but if good... yes I had a simpathy with you.

But now is the impossoble thing to meet him, to get conversation with him. Maybe he hates me more than I used to. He has a new world now and maybe he doesn't remember me at all HAHA so poor  -__-
I don't want anything except saying sorry and sorry.

Sorry for all the things that made you upset. Maybe you call me freak, or stranger or another bad nickname, but surely I just feeling sorry. Hopefully we can meet again, and the times give me a chance to say it very loudly. 
Byebye... enjoy your life, and I hope you get the best for your future.